In our 500 hour teacher training in Guatemala last December, we facilitated a vision quest for 10 students. This experience was strategically scheduled for the day before “the shift” of 12.21.12. It was an amazing journey at one of the most pivotal spiritual and astrological junctions of our lifetime. As profound as it was for me, I haven’t yet written about it, but find myself often speaking of the revelations and expansive understanding that came from it. Today in a shamanic healing session, I shared a piece of my experience from that day, and now feel called to put it in writing.
Finding a place to hold space for several hours of a vision quest was not hard in the sacred hills of Guatemala. The beauty and essence of Lago Atitlan is perfectly conducive to such a shamanic journey. After the first 4-5 hours of sitting in my self-made sanctuary, I began to feel the deep-rooted connection to all of my surroundings. Every leaf, every twig, every butterfly, every ant or bug crawling on my skin all became a part of my experience. I could breathe the water of the lake and pulsate with the inner heartbeat of the volcanoes that surrounded me. I have always understood the concept of being one with all that is, but in this moment there was a deeper understanding. I was not just connected to all of existence, but I was all of existence. The elements that were around me that make up the benevolence of nature’s wisdom were the same elements that exist within me and are the essence of my inner wisdom.
I often speak of “connecting to” Spirit or “connecting to” our breath or “connecting to” universal intelligence. I realize that it is partially an issue of semantics, but this idea of connecting to something seems to connote that we are not already inherently a part of it. The reality is we are Spirit. We are breath and we are universal intelligence. We are nature and all of the elements….earth, water, fire, air and space. We don’t need to create an experience with the Divine. It is happening all of the time. We just need to become aware of it. Nothing exists that is not divine. We are no longer bound to a concept of duality that leaves us feeling like we are not enough or we are not there yet.
Often we get caught up in the process of “trying” to connect to or become something. And in this process we may lose sight of that which we already are….beings of Light and Love…in perfection. If we are truly in this moment, we recognize that there is nowhere to go and nothing to achieve. The Divine flows through us and the connection exists within. The moment we find stillness, is the moment we see ourselves as this Light….no “connecting” required.
Since I have shifted my perspective from seeing the perfection outside of myself to seeing it inside myself, I am no longer seeking and instead am accepting what I am and who I am completely and with total conviction. Not to say that I am not setting intentions….it is just that intentions are now initiated without attachment to the outcome. There is less focus on the achievement or expectation of a goal and more of a trust that “thy shall be done”. I know that as I practice stillness, I will hear and know exactly what I need to in order to fulfill my dharma.
We don’t have to become anything that we are not already. We are not on a path….we are the path.